Entry #8

I don’t really understand why I feel compelled to draw so much. Some people seem to have a world within them that forces its way out of them onto the paper, and some people are disciplined in the way that their art is more of a science or like going to the gym.

For me I think maybe it’s more like a genuine compulsion to move the pencil around on the paper. I don’t have a real definitive world like Wes or especially Logan, and I kind of find myself grasping for straws in terms of what I want to draw. I just know I have to draw!

This often leaves me feeling like the work I create is forced, not stylistically or creatively, but spiritually. Do I have a real personal connection to the symbols that I frequently include in my work or do I just think that they look cool? Is using an Om or the Yin Yang just a cheat code I have to make something relevant? Do I need to practice daily chanting meditations with the Om to use it in my work? I don’t know.

Musings of a pseudo-esoteric white boy